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Friday, May 3, 2013

Beverly Tatum's "Racial Identity Development" - Where Does an Upper-Middleclass White Girl Fit in?

It’s difficult for me to categorize myself on the development scale, but if I had to choose one, it would be somewhere in between the stages of Immersion/Emersion and Autonomy. In my early stages of development at my private preschool, elementary and middle school, I was isolated from the Black culture almost completely, with the exception of the presence of my family’s African American maid who cleaned our house once a week. On the one hand, I did not personally know any Black children, so I had no way to identify with them, but on the other, I could understand why African Americans would not like Whites because I went to classes with the direct descendants of Charleston’s slave and cotton plantation owners, and, as far as I could tell, the turd gene has yet to be bred out of their genomes. Because I was not born into this circle—my parents came from little towns in South Dakota—I was cast off to the side and treated as an inferior, along with a handful of other misfits who I am still friends with to this day.

When I finally left that small Hell on earth in eighth grade, I was swept up into a polar opposite environment: a public magnet arts school. These people were not brought up in luxurious mansions south of Broad Street downtown; they came from literally all over the county, and brought to the table their diverse talents, racial backgrounds, and personal experiences. Here, I was accepted (or at least not openly mocked or ignored) by most everyone, and even became close friends with an African American girl in my art major, who I’ll refer to as S. To a passerby, she was as Black as they come, but in reality, she was very different. S was quiet around most people and had a dark sense of humor, so naturally we got along just great. She was also a lesbian, though I did not know this for sure until just recently, and an agnostic brought up by parents who owned and operated an extremist Baptist church. Despite knowing her well, there were many secrets I will never know the details of the physical and mental abuse she endured from some of her family members. Honestly, I didn’t want thoughts of her suffering to plague my mind; I only wanted her to be the happy, hilarious S that I saw everyday. As a White girl who never fit in the South, which was the only place I ever knew, I could never really know what it is like to be a Black girl. I suppose I will never be able to identify and fully understand what it is like to be a Black girl like S because I am just the opposite in the eyes of many Americans: an upper-middle class, straight White girl who has never faced any serious struggle in her life. But are we really opposites? I do not see race as a clear-cut Black and White issue. In fact, my foreign friends (a White European, a Hispanic, and a Chinese girl to name a few) all just lump Americans together with the same traits. I hate when they do this because I want to be seen as an individual, and my family came from some of the same countries they were born in just a few generations ago. Didn’t that mean I was something special like them? The way they see things, Americans are all looking for a way to categorize themselves: “I’m a quarter Sioux Indian!” or “I’m 1/8th Italian!” etc. They don’t care if you are 1/72nd German, if you had not been born there, grown up around German influences, or even had German parents, you are not German in their eyes. You are an American like everyone else, nothing special.

I’d like to think of myself as normal, but that is all just a matter of perspective. I’d like to think of myself as a normal kid, no missing teeth or extra limbs or laser vision. But I was rejected at my elementary school for not being normal like them, although now I know few people who really were like them. And now I feel like I’m not weird enough. Sometimes it feels like the underbelly of society is even more pretentious and finicky to please. I dunno. Maybe I’m just a weird kid who only wants to belong.


Thursday, May 2, 2013

A Presentation by Joseph Bathanti, the Poet Laureate of North Carolina


At 7 p.m. on Monday, March 25, I had the pleasure of attending "An Evening with North Carolina Poet Laureate Joseph Bathanti" at the Laurel Forum in Karpen Hall of the University of North Carolina at Asheville. Dr. Bethanti is the author of seven collections of poetry, three books of fiction, and a book of non-fiction, and has won many awards for his hard work and dedication. Additionally, he is the creative writing professor at Appalachian State University as well as the Director of Writing in the Field and Writer-in-Residence for the Watauga Global Community.

Many of the poems and short stories he read incorporated serious issues with entertaining and humorous descriptions of everyday life. His pieces cover everything from gross restrooms encountered during road trips to mothers in prison reuniting with their children living on the outside. The pieces of poetry he recited include “Drought,” “Peaches,” “Wheeling,” “Knocked,” “JoJo,” “Women in Prison,” “Dogs of Salsbury,” and three poems from his latest book Sonnets of the Cross: “Jesus Carries his Cross,” “Jesus Falls I,” and “Shooting Pool with Samuel Becket.” In addition, he read the short stories “Driving” and “Actavia.” He concluded the event with a questions & answers session with the audience, comparing his mentally demanding career as a writer and professor with his father’s physically stressful and dangerous job in the steel mill, discussing how he avoids writer’s block, and explaining the process of being selected to be a poet laureate. Overall, it was a fascinating and enjoyable evening made complete with an excellent presentation of quality literary works.

In the clip below, Bethanti gives us a glimpse into his personal life and relationship with poetry.


"Hair" - A Poem in Response to Tony Hoagland's "Dickhead"

Yeah, he's cool...
This is a little poem I actually wrote a couple years ago that was originally published in print in the book To Kiss the Other Bird Beyond the Glass, which can be purchased here. When I read Hoagland's "Dickhead" (which can be read here, along with some of his other poems), I was reminded of it again right away. The awkwardness of adolescence is an period of our lives we all try our best to pretend never happened, but it is important to not to forget it because it was a significant time of growth (both physically and mentally) and is what makes us strong, mature adults today.





Hair



I don’t spend much of my time
looking at my armpit.
It’s not a place you would go searching

for a lost sandal
or a poem, for that matter.


There’s not much there
except the occasional smell
of Del Taco on a busy Saturday afternoon.
I was never expecting to find anything there

or for anyone else to either.

When I caught another twelve-year-old girl
staring at me and snickering,
then quickly turning away,
I frantically searched my shirt

for a spaghetti sauce stain that was not there,

only wisps of soft, brown moss
growing in what had always been
a dry, naked desert.
I tried to tug down my sleeves,

but they had become too small. 

Saturday, April 20, 2013

An Examination of Culture in "Cormac McCarthy's The Sunset Limited: Dialogue of Life and Death" by Dianne C. Luce


Note: page numbers cited are quoting The Sunset Limited.

White feels trapped in Black's apartment
much the same way these innocent prisoners
and detained behind foreboding metal gates
of the Dachau concentration camp, whose sign
gives them false hope for staying alive:
"Work makes you free."
White is confined both by Black's need
to educate him about the goodness of God
and the seven locks bolting the door shut.
Even though Black sees himself as a savior,
White sees him as a jail guard for keeping
him alive in a "world [that] is basically
a forced labor camp from which the workers
- perfectly innocent - are led forth by lottery,
a few each day, to be executed" (49).
For White, culture—literature, art, music—once inspired him and gave him something to believe in, despite his resentment for people in general. In a way, it was for him what religion was for Black; while White sees Black as a Bible thumper, Black describes white as a “culture junkie” (27). However, White lost all hope for the human race after "Western Civilization finally went up in smoke in the chimneys at Dachau" (27). In the 1940s, the Nazis attempted to preserve and expand a perfect German culture by educating and annihilating any minority that diverged from the pure Arian ideal. After seeing such horrific atrocities, the professor believes he "witness[ed] the death of everything" he ever knew to be good and true (26). According to Dianne C. Luce, “his knowledge of human history has led him to conclude that happiness is ‘contrary to the human condition’ (54),” and he sees no point in being alive anymore because living only leads to pain. McCarthy illustrates through White’s perspective of reality that the death of culture leads to the death of human spirit.

Watch White's closing argument below.



Saturday, April 13, 2013

Cormac McCarthy's The Sunset Limited



The Sunset Limited is unique in a number of ways. Called a novel in dramatic form, it is meant to be both read and performed in order to grasp the full meaning behind the work. A distinctive characteristic is that the only two characters are unnamed, just labeled the Black and the Professor (or White in the film), and they remain in one room of Black’s apartment for the duration of the story. It is obvious that the men have drastically different views of life and the world around them. On one hand, we have the white professor, who is brilliant and highly educated with a love for culture, but has an incredibly gloomy outlook because he has been deeply depressed for years and is suicidal. Then there is the black man, who saves the white man from jumping in front of a train and preaches to the white man about God’s love while alternatively telling gruesome, bloody stories about how he bludgeoned another man while he was in prison for murder. These contrasting outlooks lead audiences to ponder whose view is right and question the very nature of reality itself.

What do you think? Is the black man right, or is the white man? Perhaps it's neither, or maybe even both are correct if reality is merely based upon a person's point of view. Watch the full film below to formulate your own opinion.



Wednesday, March 20, 2013

William Shakespeare's Sonnet 60 ("Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore")



This is a description of the lines of meter utilized in Shakespeare's Sonnet 60, which can be read here.

In this day and age when free verse poetry has become the norm, many readers do not notice the rhythm of the poems. However, the meter should not just be ignored because it is often implemented to provide emphasis on important words and phrases and express the main themes of the work as a whole. This is evident in William Shakespeare’s Sonnet 60 [“Like as the waves make towards the pebbled shore”]. This piece features the customary elements of a Shakespearean sonnet: three quatrains ending with a couplet, the ABAB CDCD EFEF GG rhyme scheme, and lines in iambic pentameter (lines with a pattern of unstressed and stressed syllables). However, unlike most of his sonnets, this one includes several trochees (lines with a pattern of stressed and unstressed syllables), which can be noted in the beginning of the first two lines with “Like as” and “So do.” The iambic meter undulates like the waves that “make towards the pebbled shore” the same way “our minutes” of our lives “hasten to their end,” and the trochees act like the waves crashing forcefully against the rocks. The next trochee is found in lines six through seven: “Crawls to maturity, wherewith being crowned // Crooked eclipsesgainst his glory fight.” The transformed pattern draws attention to the toils people go through from birth to inevitable death, when all their glory is brought to an end.
Here are some examples of different types of meter.
For more help, check out this study guide.